Is it All Worth it? 7-8-14.

I don't know what's going on now. Everything is changing really fast, everything is just rushing by. I don't know what's happening and I clearly do not know what will happen. Maybe someday I'll be with him...Maybe I'll be miserable for the rest of my life without him. Is there any way I can be happy with him someday?

Fuck... my life isn't O.K without him. My thoughts are completely FLOODED with him...

I miss him. I miss his hugs so fucking much... I want one of his tight hugs and just sink into his arms... I fucking love his hugs. 

I wonder if his girlfriend feels like I feel. I think that everyday would be wonderful if I was with him... waking up and knowing I have him... talking to him without being scared on what to say... not being scared of kissing him or hugging him... going out with him without getting any hate from stupid minions... 

My life needs him... I fucking need him, I don't want him, I REALLY fucking need him...Which really fucking sucks.