I talked to him the other day about what in fucks sake is he doing. He says he's not happy with her, he says he's fed up with her, he whines about her, etc. And I finally asked...
WHAT IN FUCKS SAKE ARE YOU DOING THERE THEN?
I told him that if he really wanted to end the stress and the pain and everything else, he would put an end to that relationship. He claims he's scared of being alone at school, yet he's changing schools this fall to a much bigger one, where he can meet new people.
See? it's not really that I care if he choses to be with me, or if he meets someone new... but the thing is, he's upset, he's hurt, he's tired and he really is scared of putting an end the toxic relationship he's carrying with her. UGH.
What I am also trying to say... is that... if he doesn't chose me in the end (what will probably happen) I will finally put an end to both the weird relationship we had, and the long-lasting friendship we're in...
I just can't wait for this long anymore... I've had enough pain, I just really want him to break up with her... She's not good to him and she really wouldn't mind.
The whole thing is really fucked up. I mean.. how long will I have to wait for him to actually do something about it?!?
......
Bleh.
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