Boring Night .4/4/14.

"And no one calls us to move on

And no one forces down our eyes

No one speaks

And no one tries

No one flies around the sun"

Bored bored bored.. I've been thinking a lot lately..  

things have not been the best but I have my friends and that's all I need right now.. 

Friends and music.. but music is my friend so woo! :)
I don't even know what I'm doing with my life right now haha... 

I don't even know if I got accepted into my 2nd choice for a High School. 

I DO NOT KNOW.. 

I want coffee.

Coffee sounds good right now. 

Coffee, music, sleep and Queen are my 4 main addictions.. HUGE ones. 

Meh meh meh.. 

I need sleep but I don't want to sleep.. 

I overthink A LOT at night, and I just hate it.

I've been thinking a lot about him lately.. Eh. 

Right now I'm just listening to Queen... chilling on my bed... craving coffee... 

Thinking a lot. A LOT.
I am thinking about Freddie too... I am so glad to have him in my life.. I am so glad he just pulled me out of that horrible hole called depression. FREEDOM thanks to Farrokh Bulsara :)
 

Queen is amazing. 

I can't stop thinking about what happened on Monday. I cannot believe it. I can't believe I did it. I am regretting it so so much right now. I hate myself for it. I feel dirty and stupid. I am scared someone will find out. I am scared he'll tell someone.. Fuckfuckufckfucjvm..
I hate feeling like this..

I checked with him today and he said he hasn't said anything to anyone..

I hope it stays like this forever. 

UGH~~

OUCH MY BOOBS HURT!!!
:( this hurts .. whyyyyyyy

I want coffee.. I am making myself a HUGE cup of coffee and I'm going to drink it and just be happy and watch POTC and think about Disneyland in 10 days :)
YES.
This sounds like a good plan right?
yeah.
Okay.
Caramel,over and out! :) XX