Let it out, let it in.

"I'm probably supposed to tell you something wise. Something about taking more chances, having less fear, doing crazier things or traveling more. Maybe even skipping the date with that guy so he wouldn't do much damage.

But I am not going to dole out any of that advice. No words of infinite wisdom or seasoned, aged, judgment. 

Why?

Because all of those things - those experiences, both personal and professional, will shape who you are and what you become.

Those experiences, for better and worse, become the bedrock for your character. Sure, buried in there are some very human fears and insecurities, hell we all have those!

But you will become the sum of your strengths too.

The things you learned that make you smarter, wiser, more kind, more convicted. But more curious. More ready for life. the unexpected. More courageous in the face of crisis.

More willing to live life in your own terms"

- D.H.

Now, the person who wrote this was my friend. We met last Summer on Twitter. He was extremely nice and awesome towards me, we used to stay up really late just talking about Queen, sometimes we used to role-play; he was Freddie and I acted like myself.. During hard times, he used to be there, giving me advice and "words of wisdom"
This was the most heart-warming message I got from him:

I don't know why things changed so so much all of a sudden.

I don't know what was happening on his side, I don't know if he was struggling, but HELL, he could've told me..

Amazing how people change so much... and I find it amazing how he meant so so so much to me even if I only knew him through a screen. He really made my days brighter (when he was in a good mood) and he made me smile like nobody else could or will ever make me smile. 

I fell for him once, of course. But then I learned that maybe he wasn't a good person to have in a romantic relationship way. So I stayed there.

Our conversations were usually always hanging on a thin thread. He was like a piece of TNT. I could say some things that he didn't like and all hell would always break loose. And well I don't know if I meant as much to him as he meant to me... I sure wish he did care for me, but oh well..
He really gave me the best advice. When he was in a good mood, I loved to talk to him as much as I could! About anything! Music, bands, books, life.. anything...
But well.. I just wish he knew how much I needed him sometimes, and how many times he made me sad, but I still stood there next to him, TRYING so so so hard. But I think that every time I try hard on something, it turns out to be a failure.
He was 17, I am 14. I think that's another fact that affected this whole thing.. Maybe he didn't take me seriously since I am the age I am.. He talked to older girls, prettier girls, more "exotic" and amazing. I guess I just wasn't enough for him.. I wish I was. I fucking wish I was. I am sorry I wasn't good enough, old enough or pretty enough. I am fucking sorry.

*sigh* O.K. 

To him:

I don't blame you for leaving my darling, I can be stressing at times, and I can be mean sometimes too.. I am sorry.  But you need to understand that sometimes it's good to talk things through than just leave someone broken. I am glad we had such an amazing time! You were really a whole new type of person. I've NEVER met someone like you, and I think that you're just amazing, even with that temper.. You're amazing. I hope we get to talk again someday... 
I am listening to "Us and Them" right now haha.. coincidence?
I don't know.. 
I guess things are meant to be this way. 
Maybe we aren't meant to get along... Life can be like this! 
Well... 
THANK YOU SO MUCH for everything. The smiles, the tears and those moments where you made me feel special and just.. better about myself. 
I don't know who I'm going to come to when I have my moments... I have no fucking idea..
I'll probably write them here..
Anyways.
Good-bye my love. I enjoyed the role-plays ;)
hahaha I love you.